wait, are you seeing someone else now or something? if you are, i dont judge you at all. everyone moves on from things at a different pace and you deserve all the happiness in the world--that is not to say that being with someone else has healed all wounds, but you know what i'm saying. can i ask what happened 'last saturday' since youve talked about that day a lot? and im sorry youre in this shitty situation. i'm sorry he would ever do that to you. im just sorry.
I am seeing someone else now. I try to be as open and honest as I can be with him, so he knows what’s going on with how I feel about Raymond and all that. And thanks, anon; I do see what you’re saying and I’m really glad you acknowledge that. That saturday was meant for me to figure out how I felt about Raymond and see if I still loved him or not. I was supposed to figure out whether or not I was going to come back to him. We walked around and talked a lot (I told him about the new guy) and I ended up telling him I’d go back to him but I was so unhappy about it that the next day I told him that I decided against it and asked him and his mother to not contact me anymore. Things have cooled down since then and I’m going to give it more time before I consider maybe checking up on Raymond again, however long that’ll be. Don’t know if it’ll happen or not. I’ll have to see how I feel, if it’s better to call him a stranger from now on, and how he feels about it and if he’s over me and willing to be friends. And I appreciate it. I guess I’m kinda thankful it happened…it really made me realize that there were things wrong with our relationship that I totally didn’t see before. I’m going to make sure that the relationship I have now and future relationships will not have those same problems. Hopefully I’ll be better at reading the signs and being more independent.