A lot of people tell me I’m self effacing and I put myself down a lot. My arrogance is something I don’t let show that often, I guess? But then again that could be because people are more comfortable with pointing out the self effacing part than with pointing out the arrogance. There is no middle ground haha but I think that comes from thinking that everyone (except for a few people) is fucking stupid while simultaneously thinking that I’m fucking stupid. We’re all stupid.
I don’t understand why people always make themselves the exception, or hope that they are when you explicitly say “everyone”. Sometimes I feel the need to correct people, but I feel bad crushing people’s ideas that they’re some kind of special being. When I say I get sick of people, don’t tell me that I should feel free to always hang out with you if I get sick of others. That’s very kind and I appreciate it, but you’re a person, too. When I say I get sick of people, guess what, I’ll probably get sick of you, too. I’m a person. She’s a person. He’s a person. You’re a person. No one’s the absolute shit over here; you die and you become the same kind of dust.